Another post about VJ......... even though his name hasnt been mentioned in a LONG time

Ba'd az 4 saal hanooz gheyrati hastam? na........ chetor mitoonam roo kasi ke ta alan hezar ta gf avaz karde gheyrati baasham? taazeh hanooz fekr konam gf daareh...... nemidoonam

Ehsaas mikonam hameh fekr mikonan man be khatereh oon daaram oonja miram...... yani khodam ham hatta bazi moghe haa in fekro mikonam.....vali aslan intor nist! man daaram miram oonja dars bekhoonam..... baavar konid in tanha hadafameh.......... haalaa agar dar kenaareh dars khoondan oon ro ham didam keh cheh behtar...... albateh goft ke daareh mireh Berlin....... pas omidi nist....... daste sar nevesht nakhaast ke maa baa ham az nazdik aashnaa beshim

Chand vaght pish daashtam yeh fekri mikardam....... yani hatta ghablaz inke dishab behesh message bedamo azash dar morede khoone soaal konam.........vaaghean az taheh del kheyli ehtemaal nemidaadam ke javaabamo bedeh..........aakheh man roo statusam neveshte boodam oonja ghabool shodam vali oon aslan be rooye khodesh nayovordeh bood bara hamin fek kardam aslan barash mohem nisto shayad hanoozam nabashe...vali vaghti msg zadam goft ke khabar nadashteh....... badesh behem zang zad....... fek nemikardam javaab bede chon az har 5 ta msg e ke behesh mizanam mamoolan javabe yekisho mide o too in chan sal be in raftaresh aadat kardamo say kardam bitafaavot baasham...... mesleh kheyli chizaayeh dige ke nesbat beheshoon alaan bi tafaavotam.......

Daashtam migoftam........ chand vaght pish dashtam ye fekri mikardam (ghablaz inke bahash dar hich tamaasi baasham) ...... va oon in bood ke man fekr konam in bashar ro kheyli doost daaram.... yani hamoonghad ke az movaffaghiateh in too karai ke mikoneh khoshhal misham az movaffaghiate baradaramam khoshhal misham...... yani ehsas mikonam be andazeyeh khaanevaadam baraash care mikonam...... hatta bara samimi tarin doostamam in hesso nadaaram..... bishtare moghe ha nesbat beheshoon hesaadat mikonam.......vali ba in fargh daareh......

Yeh chiz digeh am hast ke ye vaght digeh behesh fekr mikardam......va oon ineh ke cheghad khoobeh yeki aadamo enghad doos dashte bashe na? yani har kasi na....... yani in aadamai ke too in moddat az man khosheshoon oomade baraam nist ke hanooz doosam daarano raaje be man care mikonan yaa na....... aslan tarjih midam ke nakonan........vali ageh bi dooroogh oon ye zamaani az man khoshesh mioomade bayad khoshhal boode bashe ke man enghad hanooz behesh ahammiat midam

Man beh ottawa migam shahreh eshgh.... shayad ba khodetoon begin che rabti daareh...... mageh ottawa pariseh?! Bara man ottawa shahre eshgheh.......... jaayieh ke aadami zendegi mikoneh ke beh khaateresh man alaan injaa hastam o in kasi hastam ke hastam...... kasieh ke be khateresh tasmim gereftam darsamo khoob bekhoonam ta betoonam behesh nazdiktar besham......agar che avaakhereh saaleh tahsilim digeh aslan yaadam rafte bood ke cheraa az oon hichvaght khosham mioomade o ina .....vali ta oonjai ke yadameh kheyli az darsaamo baraayeh hadafe movaffaghiat khoondam ke betoonam dar aayande aadameh behtari besham....

Ottawa baraayeh man shahre eshgheh chon che oon toosh baasheh che nabaasheh man az oonjaa boodan lezzat mibaram chon cheh bebinamesh che nabinamesh kheyli az ehsaasaatam dar man baa oon shoroo o tamoom shod.... hamoontor ke behesh ye zamani gofte boodam oon baraayeh man mesleh yeh hero mimooneh va chi behtar az inke too shahri zendegi koni ke herot toosh yeh zamaani boodeh.......

Shaayad digeh bahash hichvaght harf nazanam vali hich vaght nemitoonam begam keh boodo naboodesh too zendegieh man farghi nadaashteh.....chon ke daashteh........ va az inke oon too in donya vojood daashteh khoshhalam

Garcheh agar fekresho bokonam va bekhaam dalileh tamaameh in bi tafaavot boodanamo peida konam shayad az ashnaai baa oon risheh gerefteh baasheh..... vali baavar konid ke alaan aslan yaadam nist ke oon chi daasht ke mano enghad majzoobeh khodesh kard?! yaadameh ke yeh zamani doosesh dashtam vali aslan yaadam nist chera va aslan oon hesso yaadam nist......