The truth is that........

I'm not scared of becoming depressed/not enjoying every moment of my life since the person that I'm considering to be "the one" is someone who is going through major difficulties in his life ....even though he migh have some energy left in him after his grandpa passed away in an accident (when he got hit by a car), he's now spending that energy in dealing with his aunt's sickness since she has breast cancer and is getting sick in ways that worries him a lot........ only if I knew what the right words to say are I would stay around.........there's nothing else in this world that makes me happier than helping someone get through a difficult time........ only if I knew how....... I haven't experienced it ........... and I dont know what will be left of him if his aunt god forbid does not make it...........

Maybe I'm being silly by being too negative....... maybe I should really be a lot more positive and hope that she gets well.........caz to be honest with u I'm really worried about him.... I dont know if he can handle it...........

What have I got myself into? I dont regret it......... I just sometimes really dont know how to respond to him when he tells me about his problems........ maybe I should go read a book about it.......... maybe that's what I'll do.....