Self discovery......

I have learned something about myself

I can handle myself if I'm sad........ I can get over it and move on........ recover completely and forget about what ever it was that made me sad........

But what I can't handle is other people's sadness......... I hate to be the reason for someone else's sadness...... I will do anything to put a smile back on their face no matter what it is / what I have to do......

The difficult part is when two people that you love so much are against each other ....... that's when making one of them happy makes the other one sad ........

The brilliant thing is if you think long and hard you might be able to find a solution to keep them both happy

If that doesn't happen then ur screwed for life! And that's the sad reality

In my situation I was able to find a way to make both parties happy....... he was SO sad when I told him I don't want to meet him at the place we'd decided......... now I have told him that I can go to his city and see him there if he wants............ if he says no I'll be so mad at him.........that means he didn't care at all......... I'll be fine though......... as long as I tried my best to make him happy............that's all that matters to me at the end of the day.................I msged him 2 hours ago and he hasn't replied yet.........I wonder if he ever will............

But I'm at peace in my heart and I thank god for that <3