People change......

If u read the posts that I made last year at this time, you'll see how I was always talking about wanting to get away, wanting to get a better degree, wanting my family to accept me better....

Now that I have the opportunity to leave, I do want to leave, but I no longer have those strong feelings about leaving....

I enjoy living in our apartment now, specially since my brother's leaved I've finally got my own room, my own privacy.........

Knock on wood, there haven't been any big storms at our place in a while.... they seem happy....

I don't feel like I have to run away anymore....... but I still would like to have this experience.......

anyway...... here's some news

I'm going to see him in a couple of weeks......... even though he was hesitant about it he finally said ok......

I don't know what it is that's holding me back.......

All I want to do is to see him, thank him for what he's done for me ........

He has opened my eyes to a better world...... I don't want to hurt him......... I want to meet him..... who knows......... I might even fall in love with him......