I feel so bad, lost, depressed.......
Not in general, just at this moment

As u may already know, I've started talking to this guy from LA who is a doctor and is going somewhere for a conference so I told him that I can join him there

I changed my mind after a while but then he told me that he would really like me to go there with him and I'm going caz I dont want him to be sad because of me.......

I really don't think we are a good match at all...... but he insists that we are....

So I'm basically going with him just because he's a nice guy and I like him a lot and dont want to see him any more sad than he already is.....

If it was up to me, I would stop talking to him right now and continue living my boring life alone which I'm more than used to by now and dont mind at all.......

I kinda feel like I've stopped everything in my life for him ...... Ive already learned a lot from him which I can apply in my life but I'm nothing compared to him......