Unfaithful

"Why are you marrying him?"
"'Caz he's a great man."

These were the two lines from this movie that I was watching today........ the woman was having an affair with another guy and when the guy asked her why she's marrying someone else she said because he's a good man.........

Is being good enough? Is being perfect enough?

While thinking about making a list of what I want in a man the first thing that I'm deciding that I want is for me to love him more than he loves me ........ I mean I think that's what I want......... what's the point in being loved when you can't love the person in return? No matter how wonderful the guy is

He has a friend ......... did I tell you about his friend? Did I tell you how much I enjoyed my time with them because of his friend not because of him?

His friend is possibly interested in my best friend........and that makes me sick

The thought of his friend looking at another girl / wanting another girl makes me sick

At the same time, I can't even ask myself to consider going out with him........ it's too complicated since he's interested in my friend........

Why can't I want what I have now? "My guy" is perfect too! Why can't I like him?

Caz he likes me so much?

Is it because of my parents? The relationship between my mom and dad....... how much my dad loves my mom............ the reason why my mom married my dad (I think it was mostly because my dad was smart and very goal oriented ...... and kinda good looking too ;) ....... but what about love?) .............

>>> When ur in love....... u do anything....... u do all the crazy things that you can't explain<<<<

That's what I want......... I don't want to force myself to like him no matter how wonderful he is! I want to be able to want to write poems for him......and if I can't write him one read 100 poems until I find one that matches my feelings for him........

That's what's important isn't it?

I'm so confused!