I need to write some more here.....

When I think about not talking to him, I finally feel at peace...... I really don't think I want this.....

I''ve always said that I'm not looking for a husband........ I've always said that I want to stay single.......... at the same time I've always been attracted to certain people.......... but again at the same time I've always been scared of going out with those people caz most of them were not right for me........... most of them were'nt even interested in me

I think the way my heart has turned to be, it's not accepting of anyone ......... maybe this is a chance for me to appreciate my alone time........

I'm the one that had signed up for all these websites where u go to find "the one"............ I'm the one that signed in on those websites 100 times a day to see if there's anyone interested and interesting.........

Am I crazy?

I don't want to spend time with him and then leave him with more memories........... I'll be fine but I'm not sure if he'll be fine

I'm very inexperienced in this....... very very very inexperienced............. I don't know what I should think or how I should think or what I want or what I should want........... I don't know any of these answers

All I do know at this moment is that I have absoloutely no feelings for him whatsoever ....... so it will be 100% easy for me to not talk to him at all ............ the question is: should I?