There's a reason for everything.........

There is a reason why I am the way I am today ............. I used to love people........... I had the ability to fall in love with people.............. I had the ability to care for people ............

If you ask me if anyone's broken my heart I would probably say no.......... there's no specific person that I can say has come to my life and broken my heart........ no ..........that's not what happened............. but I used to have strong feelings for KR......... I used to have strong feelings for IT ............ strong feelings for VJ.............. strong feelings for ST ......... but they chose to ignore me .......... they chose to leave........... and I think that might be a small part of why I can't care for anyone..........

There's something in my subconcious that stops me from feeling for people........... I've learned to say "to h*** with this person" ....... it takes about a week to forget......... one week or two......... but I have the ability to forget people........ and kill the feelings that I've had for them.........

Right now there is not anyone in this world that I love.......... and to be honest with you as I have said before I don't think there will ever be a person that I will love...........

At this point in my life I don't think I'm good enough .........that's why I don't want anyone to come to my life caz I will constantly think that he will leave me for someone better

I'm not gonna go to the party tonight........... I have no interest in meeting new people

I'm going to LA next week............ just for the adventure............and P better stop forcing me to take pretty dresses to impress others...........I'm going there for the fun of seeing a new city not to meet anyone!! OK? aslan mikhaam baa chaador beram! I do not want to dress to impress ........ why doesnt she get it? I'm content with the way I live my life and I don't want anyone!!!!!!