Happy Birthday!!!
First of all, let me start by saying F this life......... :D
Excuse my language but I just really felt like saying that.... just becaz the life at home sucks......the life at work sucks.......and the life with my dreamy thoughts about a relationship sucks!! over all, I have nothing positive to say other than the fact that I'm thankful for my life caz it's as normal as one's life can possibly be.... well minus the fact that I've never been in a relationship everything else is normal ...... or even above normal! So what am I complaining about? The usual, the emptiness
Yes, I had fun with the guy that I met at that Yalda party..... yes it was a good excitement and change in my life...... yes he was (is) here for a reason... but believe it or not I'm ready to let go of him..... yes he came to my birthday..... yes he called the day after to thank me for everything....... but so what? is that really what love is all about? Yes I like him...... yes I think he's sweet... yes I'm happy about the fact that he's not pushy (caz if he was I would get scared and run away) ..... yes I'm happy about the fact that he doesn't look desperate and doesn't call me every minute (caz otherwise I would get annoyed and run away) ..... so "what is the problem" you may ask..... and my answer is "I donnow" .........
The truth is that all I need in my life right now is some excitement and to tell you the truth this "love fling" is not doing it for me.....
I know the problem....... I'm not that experienced in relationships/starting relationships........ so I definately can't take charge in taking the two of us to places..... and it seems like he can't do that either....... and him calling me everyday to see how my day went/ how i am doing doesnt do it for me.....i guess since I am interested in him if he pursued me a bit more it probably wouldnt have made me wanna run away since I like him and I like being with him....
Anyways, at this point, as i said before, I'm ready to let him go and look forward to other things such as working on improving my french and spanish, working out, taking dance lessons and these sort of things :)
Empty is how i feel!
Excuse my language but I just really felt like saying that.... just becaz the life at home sucks......the life at work sucks.......and the life with my dreamy thoughts about a relationship sucks!! over all, I have nothing positive to say other than the fact that I'm thankful for my life caz it's as normal as one's life can possibly be.... well minus the fact that I've never been in a relationship everything else is normal ...... or even above normal! So what am I complaining about? The usual, the emptiness
Yes, I had fun with the guy that I met at that Yalda party..... yes it was a good excitement and change in my life...... yes he was (is) here for a reason... but believe it or not I'm ready to let go of him..... yes he came to my birthday..... yes he called the day after to thank me for everything....... but so what? is that really what love is all about? Yes I like him...... yes I think he's sweet... yes I'm happy about the fact that he's not pushy (caz if he was I would get scared and run away) ..... yes I'm happy about the fact that he doesn't look desperate and doesn't call me every minute (caz otherwise I would get annoyed and run away) ..... so "what is the problem" you may ask..... and my answer is "I donnow" .........
The truth is that all I need in my life right now is some excitement and to tell you the truth this "love fling" is not doing it for me.....
I know the problem....... I'm not that experienced in relationships/starting relationships........ so I definately can't take charge in taking the two of us to places..... and it seems like he can't do that either....... and him calling me everyday to see how my day went/ how i am doing doesnt do it for me.....i guess since I am interested in him if he pursued me a bit more it probably wouldnt have made me wanna run away since I like him and I like being with him....
Anyways, at this point, as i said before, I'm ready to let him go and look forward to other things such as working on improving my french and spanish, working out, taking dance lessons and these sort of things :)
Empty is how i feel!
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