The day is almost overrrrr

I'm going to sleep in less than 20 minutes........ YAY

I don't think I've told you anything about living in the GRAY area have I?

This was a conversation I had with my friend a while ago......... I was telling her about how I always wait and see what happens ......... and how there are a lot of maybes in my life........and she said that I have to learn to choose a side........... I can't let myself stay in the gray area for too long........ it's like struggling with yourself 24/7........... and I guess sometimes you have to choose a side........ even if you're not sure........ choose something and stick to it! (as I'm writing this I know that I'm not doing it....... I just can't....... I might do it......... gray area.......AGAIN!!!)

Yea ..... life sux like this........ my sis + bro in law + niece are leaving soon :( :(

How about this........ I will not chat until they come back......... and I will only check FB...... hmmm..........twice a day ......... this way I can focus more on school............if I ever get the energy to fill out the application form..........

OK ....... I will try to do something very soon....... I'll keep u posted........ right now life is very sucky....... lol...... if that's even a word......... and I keep wanting to go to chatrooms....so I can forget......... but I will stick to my promise........... no matter what happens.......... and as I'm writing this I get scared........ scared for me and my sanity.......... but not chatting does create a satisfying feeling........so maybe it won't be that bad............ not like I've never quit before.........

ok..........the goal is to FOCUS ON LIFE

Cheers to that

p.s. I wonder if they're still together? not that I care....... just out of curiousity........... looking for trouble ........ LOL ........... ok BYE