New idea.......

Since I'm someone who doens't know how to enjoy life I was thinking of giving my money to those who are appreciating life and enjoying every bit of it.......

I have honestly given up............ AH is finally in vancouver........but guess what? I have no feelings for him............. well I wasn't expecting much........ my feelings for him all went away after a few incidents that happened in the past and I was left with no feelings for him when he finally arrived.........

There's someone else who is interested in me......... but I am not attracted to him either........

The other 2-3 people (who are all PHD) students and I like are people that I don't really know that well......... I just like them from distance or having short conversations......

So I give up......... I surrendour.......... I'm tired of looking.......... I'm tired of trying to find who I am......... I'm tired of thinking of having new experiences in order to expand my small world...........

I'm happy with the job that I have now and all I wanna do is work....... be on the bus 4 hours a day.........eat..........sleep........ and probably give away my money in the end...........

Just want the time to pass by........and that's ALL........

I'm tired of having no feelings for anyone or anything! I'm tired of never getting excited about anything..........

Good night