Haalemaan bad hast....... gham ham mikhorim........

I went to a persian halloween party tonight.......... by myself! and got to know a few girls.........and danced w them ............ with music that wasnt good at all!

I had two bottles of beer... feel like puking now..........

I got to dance with the least good looking guy that had come to the party........I'm sorry but he was like maybe 1% good looking ....... out of all the guys that were there.........he was the only one that wanted to dance w me...........which makes me wonder............ am i not so good looking too? am i really? because i never thought so......... but why didnt anyone else ask me to dance? could it be because the girls that were there were better looking than me?

w/e........... just feel like sh*t right now

AH was there too.......... and the guy i just told u about is his friend........... and the guy i just told u about is the friend of someone that I actually like! so why couldnt he come and ask me to dance? why doesnt god want me to hook up with someone that I at least like? why should i always be chased by all these men that i dont like? why?

still feeling like i dont wanna be here

oh ...... news: i got a permanent job at where i work now..........weehee......... like thats a good thing! as my parents say: "u got a degree so u can go cashiering!" .......... w/e

saadeh begam raftaniam........... mikhaam b*ramo beram..............zamin vaasam jaai nadaasht beh asemoon mosaaferam..........

not that im serious about this song.......... but this is how dep i'm these days...... back to the days of feeling lost.......... wondering if anything will ever come along to make me happy...........

i need to smile ........ no i need to be happy.......... i need to be happy from inside............ why cant anyone help me? why cant i like anyone enough to enjoy their company? why oh why? lol

going crazy!