Always wanting more.......

Always wanting to become better....... want things that are better.......... I don't think I'm the only one.............. it's just in human's nature

I have to remember to help others along the way....... I have serious problems with conforting others emotionally.......... I'm always afraid of being nice.......... always afraid that they'll like me....... and if someone likes me I either don't like them or if I do my insecurities about myself get in the way ........ but believe it or not I have yet to meet my knight in shining armor! Maybe it's a myth ......... maybe everyone else around me is right........... maybe I should start something with someone that I don't really like in order to get experience so I'd know how to deal with the one when he comes along......... but I don't want to....... and I never will .........

I'm sorry for boring you again with my nonesense about my feelings and the thought of having a relationship......... I know its become repetitive.........but I guess the reason I talk about it is so I can see if I can make any discoveries about my emotions and feelings........... but so far it seems like I haven't succeeded much

I don't even know what to hope for/ wish for/ aim for anymore...........


I know I'm good..... but just not good enough for many many things.........

Naashokri nemikonam.............. always greatful for what I've been given........... thank u!