Miss Tavahhom Part II

hmmmmmmmm....... The way I feel these days is very similar to how I was feeling 3 years ago at this time (when I hadn't been accepted to UNI and was going through a rough time) ........... with the difference being the fact that I was trying really hard to change the way I am back then ......... just constantly thinking of changing.......... but now ....... I'm just in that tavahhom world again.........this time not trying to change........ I think I should diagnose myself with having a short attention span...... eventhough that might not be the right word to use I do feel like I'm constantly getting distracted....... and trying to think about too many things at the same time......... I can't and dont usually listen to what people are telling me because at the same time i'm thinking about the past/ present/ and the future........

I think I should be worried about myself......... but I'm not ...... not just yet.... maybe in the near future

I also have another news........ I realized that if someone drops from your eye (az cheshm biofteh) .......... if they have really done something to drop from your eye .........then there is absoloutely no way in the world that you can ever have the complete love and affecetion towards them............ meaning that it's impossible to forgive and forget........and even if you forgive....... you can never forget......... hence you'll never be able to feel the same ........... even though at times it might seem like you have........ you haven't....... you will never be able to move on! (no I'm not thinking about a guy here...... this time it's about friends and family members)

I think I know the day that everything changed......... I just dont wanna talk about it..........it was some time in the past 40 days.......... it's because of my family situation mostly......... I THINK........ not sure........ or it could be personal........

fe'lan ke lahzeh haa baa hameyeh khoobio badi daaran migozarand........... I just hope when my brother comes back he will not add more to this drama! I don't think I will be able to take any more of this.............

aslan shaayad risheyeh aslieh tamaameh in az vaghti shoroo shod ke oon raft....... yeh joori baavaram nemisheh chetor kasi keh enghad beh digaraan bedehkaareh mitooneh baa khiaale raahat kooleh baaresho jam koneh o be mosaaferat bereh.......