Finally......

So i finally have all my marks! two A- and an A. Not too bad............. but....... now I'm wondering if I should even bother applying..............I mean I will..........I'm suuuuuuuuuuure I will........... but I just donnow where to begin ??????? how should I write an SOP? why can't I just go look at some samples or ask?

yesterday I talked to M....... and she told me that she's gonna ask x about y ..... lol.......... but I just wanted to focus on Z......... now that there's a y I'm so confused that I don't want either of them....... I just wanna be free again........... w/o the feeling of guilt! maybe I will do that......... seriously.........I'm tired of this uncertainty........... I want my world to change and that will not happen if I stick to what I've been doing for the past 10 years!

so right now I'm just confused..........I'm gonna go to my sis house in a bit...........but I feel like sleeping for a bit more........... my mom is sick :( and tomorrow is mother's day........maybe i'll go to the mall to buy her something before I go to my sis' place............. hmmmmmmmmm

I'm so sleepy!