Bartar boodan.........

Ma'nieh in vaghean chieh? avval mikhastam begam keh aareh man az ba'ziaa bartaram bara hamin nabayad baa hamchin adamai harf bezanam.........vali vaagheiat ineh keh bahs bahseh bartar boodan nist....... bahseh tafaavot haast.......... man nemitoonam yeh adameh faghiri ke ba yek maadar bozorg shodeh o dar yeh shahreh iran ke man shayad hichvaght narafteh baashamo dark konam...........areh man hanooz oonghadr beh takaamol naresidam ke betoonam hameyeh aadamaro mesleh ham bedoonam.............mardom ba ham fargh daran............ hamishe az in mozoo mitarsidam........ ya'ni nemitarsidam.......... vali beh har hal adam tarjih mideh ba kasaai ke bahashoon bishtar aashnai dare begarde ta yeki ke az yek donyaaye digeh oomadeh............ man khodam hattaa ba khanevadamam in moshkelo daram ke belakhareh yad gereftam bahash kenaar biaam.......... mardomi ke nesfe zendegishoon ghablaz enghelaab boodeh......... mardomi ke kheyli talkhio shirini .......shayad bishtar talkhi dar zendegi keshidan..........shayadam ghadre shirini haye zendegiro nadoonestan........mardomi ke hezar ta khatereh daran............bar akseh man ........... 23 saal zendegi va shayad kamtar az 23 ta khatereh............ nemidoonam.......... khanevadeyeh khodamo doost daaram..........hattaa bishtar...........ashegheshoonam............. ashegheh ghesseh haashooonam............ baraam chizai ke tarif mikonan kheyli vaght haa bavar kardani nist........ kaaraai ke anjaam daadan.......... jahai ke raftan........ ettefaghai ke barashoon oftade.........ettefaaghai ke baraayeh dorovariashoon oftaadeh........... az donyaai ke man ba oon ashnai daram kheyli dooreh.... vali baaz ham belakhare adam be donya oomadeh ta zendegi koneh va chiz haayeh jadid yaad begireh......... man ke hanooz zendegimo shoroo nakardam..........vali bayad kam kam ghablaz inkeh dir besheh yeh kaari konam..........

I'm very confused right now........... not sure what the next step should be..........

but it's 12:06 a.m. ........... and i'm VERY sleepy............ so the best thing to do is to go to sleep! :)