The greatest victory......everything does happen for a reason..... :)

So as I was wasting a few hours in the library, waiting for my next class, I ran into RD ..... (u know who he is right? if you don't read a few posts from jan 2008 I believe or dec 2007 i think i had written a few things about him then and had finally decided to be happy about him and his x gf who is now his gf again) ....... anyways..........as I was saying...... I ran into him........ he was on a computer....... and there was a free computer next to his......so I went and sat there........ and said hi very formally........and he said Hi back........ and then I was just doing my own thing cause I had to check something on the internet.......and he started a convo...... even though he was studying...... I just replied to his questions...... not asking him much in return......... and it was a really good feeling........ u know...... he is a total stranger to me now.... eventhough i still think he is nice and everything I don't have absoloutely no feelings for him AT ALL ....... like 0! ........ so it was good to see that............ to look into the eyes of someone u once though u liked...... talk to them...... and don't care AT ALL if they are there or not..... after I left I didn't even think about him....... so yea....... it was really interesting ..........

And remember the 30 year old guy that I had told you about (look in the posts of Feb) ..... he txt msged me yesterday........after 3 whole weeks of saying absoloutely nothing!! hahaha...... I mean that's just crazy right? what was he thinking? did he think I'm that stupid to go back and want to talk to him????? NO WAY...... he's so part of the past.....

I'm so thankful........... thank you god for not letting me start anything with this guy....... considering his age and background and who he is he's definately not right for me........ I was just attracted to him because he's cute! but who cares if he's cute right?

So here is my news....... as I was doing what I had promised myself and you not to do (chat) during spring break (2 weeks ago) at like 4 in the morning......... I met someone from Vancouver ..... anyways...... he's actually a city away.......doing his masters.......... and he's a year younger than me :D ....... but he's absoloutely adorable......... however......... the thing is that I do really hate chatting..... and I dont really feel like having a long distance relationship (I'm not saying that he's interested ........ just in case he is ...... )........... anyways ..... the point is that I don wanna call him....... and don't think chatting with him so much is right either........ so I've decided to chat with him maybe once or twice a week......... and see where things go........... he's so so very nice ....... but I can't say anything about how I feel....... because I don't know how I feel until I see him......... he came to van last week and said we should meet up........ but I said no....... cause I really dont feel like starting anything now that it's the last term.... I want to finish it in peace...... haha......... I just hope he doesn't think I'm ignoring him because I don't like him.......

har chi ghesmat baashe :) .... emroozam bahash harf nazadam......... which is what I wanted...... but now I'm not in a good mood...........

lately..... i guess ever since I met him..... i dont care about anyone else anymore........ i mean i haven't called P ...... and don't really talk much at home...... i just want to be left alone for a while........ but that's hard to do considering I live under the same roof with 3 other people.......... and + I feel a storm coming....... I hope not........ I just don't feel like being nice to anyone right now ......... i donnow why?!!! ........ I just want to be quiet with myself and not talk to anyone ...... it could be because of the stress........ it's kind of wearing me down ......... the stress of graduating in less than 2 months......... the stress of the finals......... and the marks........ and the assignments.......... everything....... i wish i could press the fast forward button........the school will be finished FOREVER 1 month from today