Divided...........

Everything was the same until I came to the realization that I need to know more! Not because I had to.......but because I wanted to............

Then I felt torn between my two cultures........... the culture that I have been trying to adapt to for so long and the culture that needs to be thought of as part of the past, not the future

Everytime I try to read something about whatever is going on in my home country I feel like it's more important for me to read more about the country that I'm living in right now........ and then ..... I don't do either............ because ..... lack of motivation? or time? I don't know...... then I forget all about them........ and when I come across info about "the past" I feel like why should I waste my time when I don't live there anymore? But I know that I need to know........ not because I want to but becaue I have to...........

hmmmm ......... what can u conclude from that? this is how it feels when you don't really know even at times when you feel like you do know!