Best/Worst

Learning not to care was the best and worst thing that happened to me!

It was good in the sense that I just didn't get hurt from the things that people told me....... I mean I did care but tried to forget about it and get it out of my head as quickly as possible......

And u may ask why is it the worst thing? Well, obviously it's because it's bad when you don't care! Sometimes I can feel that I'm pushing myself and telling myself "a*** ... just ignore what you heard/ saw...... just pretend like it didn't happen" .......... but after a while it really hurts me ........ sometimes even more than itself! ...... u know what i mean? Not caring hurts me more than if i had cared!

But on the other hand sometimes I think I care too much..........

There are certain things that I care about too much..........

So have I really learned not to care or am I just b.s.ing?

It's for me to know and for you to figure it out!