Moving forward..........

I have deleted my account from facebook........ mostly because I realized that the people that I have on there are not the people that I want to be in touch with ........except for a very few who have my phone number and can call me if they feel the need to talk........

So yesterday......out of the blue......they call me from TD and do a quick interview on the phone.........which went I guess OK ........... u know I really want to be excited about this opportunity but at the same time i don want to get too disapointed in the end if I don't get the job........ it's gonna be kinda hard to be a full time student and work but i believe that everything works out in the end and I just really really want the job! this is the message i am sending to the universe " i really want this job at td bank!! hook me uppppp :D"

I was just sitting in my room and day dreaming when my dad came in and said "Did they tell you that your english is bad? huh?" (not the exact translation but it gave almost the same meaning) ...... u know out of all the nice things he could say he chose to say this one! probably because..........

well i know he's not very proud of me as i have told u before .........so........... but he's been really nice lately and i kind of like the new "atmosphere" in this house.........and if his "true feelings" about what he thinks about me comes to the surface every once in a while i guess i should just accept them and live with them..................

anyways ..........so that was my news............

i haven't talked to AN for almost a week and ..... well i donnow what will happen next...........

but i am so freaking tired of everyone......... not all people in general........... just the people that i know.......... i am kinda scared of them............ because they kinda all look down on me like i am a piece of.......... a whole lotta nothing..........and even if i am that i would like to find some people who can be a lil bit positive without faking it! i should just try to keep my mouth shut and dont show my weaknesses to the people that i meet in the future ......

they haven't called me from G yet ........... grrrr.......... i hate ........ or maybe i should say i strongly dislike people that are careless!!! the manager was supposed to call me before the end of last week........and since it's not the best job in the world i didnt bother calling them to ask what happened! but i will ...... probably tomorrow...........

oh and there's this persian dance that's coming up on monday night!! i really want to go to it but i think it would be kinda weird if i went all by myself......... so i havent decided if i should go or not......... but i really wanna go......... don care if i go alonE!

and last but not least............1 more year till i take this "monster/ my saviour" out of my mouth and look like a normal person............

till then i will just try to stay + :)

u know my first goal is to go for ......... (don wanna say it out loud) .......and second plan is to move to another city after my graduation and just work there and live there by myself for a while (preferably Toronto , ottawa (city of love) ) lol ........... who knows maybe they'll be getting married by then and invite me LOL........haha .......... i donnow........ i really wanna go live there for a few monthes.............just need to get away from everyone!

cheers to that.

we'll see what happens............