I would do anything for love.....

It's that time of the month again, for some reason I always feel so emotional during this week and I get sad and depressed .....and.......cry a lot!

You know I was thinking about love because when I went out with my "friend" yesterday he was pointing out to his gf that I have never been in love/ had a bf........ and I thought to myself "yes I have" but I can't really tell anyone about it because it's so stupid

I have always thought of myself as one of those people who end up in bad abusive marriages..... because for example right now........when I fell in love with that guy......my whole life completely changed..... like I could feel happiness...which was the greatest feeling in the world.... and I was thinking if I marry someone who I love like that...... no matter how much he'd hurt me....for example cheat on me or even slap me or whatever...... I will still stick by them......because of the good memories that we once had together........ because of the love...... because he once made me feel complete........... and when I watch movies where wives that are abused by their husbands still stick by them...... I can understand the reason.......and eventhough it's not right...... they would feel so lost without them.......specially if he was the first person that ever showed them any love.......

so there you go..... I should really be careful.......or think about staying single forever!