The art of disattachment,,,,,,

You know it's hard........no body wants to be lonely........

But if you don't get used to someone from the beginning u won't have to bare the long/hard suffering from their carelessness.........

People never fail to disappoint you...........

I keep telling myself over and over again..........don't get used to.......... don't don't don't!

But sometimes I fall in the trap......... and do...........

and when that happenes...........well it creates a lot of dillema!

I'm not saying that everyone should do this..........because everyone is not like me! I'm really unique in some ways........and this is one of them......... I am so alone all the time.......... but sometimes I get bored ..........and really really want someone to hang out with..........and when I choose this "someone" ..........and ask them to go out with me ............ and they say no! ........... well.... I just can't swallow this kinda news very well............ and I get sad ........ and mad........... and think about never talking to them again.......... and tell myself again "don't don't don't.........don't get used to people............. don't expect anything from them" ......... but then I realize........... no matter how much I tell myself there are some things that I can't change........... after all......... I am a human being........with a lot of expectations.........and...........feelings!