Here we go again!!!!!!!!!!!

I had started talking to P since............2 weeks ago.......... andddddd........... omg......... i hate the fact that I've spent so much money lately ......... and she wants to go out again.......... and I just don't have the money to do so.....

grrrrr

we were supposed to have a small party at our house but now she has changed the plans to go to boston pizza!

u know...... I hate the fact that I am fake........ or moody........ I''ve never concidered myself as a fake person............eventhough it's hard to avoid being fake when I sometimes have to force showing some emotions!! after all I have to at least try to "fit in" and every once in a while show some love to the people around me .......righT?

so the other day we were talking......... and I don't know if it was my mood that changed or if I actualy felt like making her feel like I'm gonna miss her

this friendship is nooooooooooot working................

should I end it? I mean if I could drive, had money maybe I wouldn't have had to......... but I don't ...........so................... grrrrrrrrr ......... I'm gonna have a headache again........she's leaving in 3 days ! yay!