Am I a human being?

If I am, where are all the emotions?

I know that I don't have much of the emotion called "anger" and not much of the one called "happy" nor the one called "love".

I'm scared for myself. Maybe not because sometimes I do have some feelings so it's not like I have no feelings at all. But like honestly I have been hanging out with V H and he's been soooooooooo kind to me like superrrrr nice. But............ I feel nothing for him. Sometimes I put up walls that are so hard to destroy and get through. I can honestly say that I have absoloutely 0 feelings towards this guy. If I sleep tonight and wake up the next day he will not be part of my thoughts. That's how insignificant he is. Which is really scary, because he's been so nice. I don't know. Maybe there's something wrong with me..... or maybe not.........

But I just want to say that I respect all my feelings and I do like the choices I make and how strong I stand by them. I just hope that he forgives me. God plz make him forgive and forget me. I don't get pleasure out of hurting people. I don't like seeing people sad. I don't want to be the cause of someone's sadness. I hope he can easily forget me..........God forgive me for being likeable to this guy..... I did not want to mislead him....... I was only trying to discover new feelings... but unfortunately that didn't happen