Why is it so hard to let others love you???

This probably sounds like a crazy question......

I mean who would actually reject people's love?

Well......ME

Honestly I KNOW that I DO that a lot! I am just afraid of putting too much emotion out there (since I am an emotional person).....

the people you love always end up leaving you alone.....the people you love put you under pressure....the people you love make you think twice about how good of a person you are...the people you love want you to be more than who you are! and I just CANT TAKE THAT!

I'd rather play it safe.... or even pretend like nothing matters.....which usually ends up as a real feeling of "nothing matters" ....which kind of sucks and makes me think twice about how good of a human being I am ..... But ........that's all part of the confusion that people HAVE TO HAVE in life! Isn't it?