Tell me what do you see? YES i've lost my mind!
And there I was......... with my mouth open........ my hands shaking...... standing there in disbelief.........
The highest mark was 35 .....and the lowest 25....... I was so nervous....... I didn't pay attention to the lecture at all..........I probably got 28........ that's what I thought in my head........ until I got it back............my eyes could not believe........it was like a death sentence.......... between all the people in that class.........I was the only one retaking the course........and the only one getting the lowest mark..........
I mean am I really that stupid? am I dumb? I dont know what I am anymore......... but I'm starting to believe.....I knew that I was crazy...... after a while I started to believe that I am not as smart as I once was.... but today....... it was more than I could handle.....to be the worst.......that's just not something that I'd ever expected.........
I dont know what to do anymore.........I'm as discouraged as ever.........and I just want to.......... and rest in peace....... but that's not possible.........I can promise myself to try harder next time........
it's like getting raped and believing that it won't happen again..........
I will have nightmares about it........ this will hunt me forever......... to be the worst.......that's just not something that I ever expected myself to be......... NEVER in my life did I think that a day would come when I would think this low of myself........ the low of the lowest
may god help me
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The highest mark was 35 .....and the lowest 25....... I was so nervous....... I didn't pay attention to the lecture at all..........I probably got 28........ that's what I thought in my head........ until I got it back............my eyes could not believe........it was like a death sentence.......... between all the people in that class.........I was the only one retaking the course........and the only one getting the lowest mark..........
I mean am I really that stupid? am I dumb? I dont know what I am anymore......... but I'm starting to believe.....I knew that I was crazy...... after a while I started to believe that I am not as smart as I once was.... but today....... it was more than I could handle.....to be the worst.......that's just not something that I'd ever expected.........
I dont know what to do anymore.........I'm as discouraged as ever.........and I just want to.......... and rest in peace....... but that's not possible.........I can promise myself to try harder next time........
it's like getting raped and believing that it won't happen again..........
I will have nightmares about it........ this will hunt me forever......... to be the worst.......that's just not something that I ever expected myself to be......... NEVER in my life did I think that a day would come when I would think this low of myself........ the low of the lowest
may god help me
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