The only people that are truely happy are the ones who are in love!

There are some things that can not be explained. They can be put into words but you will not understand it until u feel it. You have to experience it to believe it.

Maybe this is not worth writing about but I thought I should give it a try. I will try to explain as much as possible. But I can not make u understand or believe it.

You can seem happy, you can laugh, and you can have fun, but the feeling you have when you are in love is nothing comparable to anything else that u have felt.

Maybe I was lucky enough to be fooled into loving some people in my life that were maybe not worth loving. But those days, the days that I was in what I thought was love were the happiest days of my life. Maybe they were also the sadest, in a sense that the X's absence created a kind of madness in me that I had not experience before.

Now I know that it's hard to forget about the one that I loved. Maybe it's because it's really extremely hard for me to find someone that I'm attracted to and capable of loving.

I would like to make a confession, but I'm afraid of puting my thoughts into words and I hope I'd never have to explain it to anyone eventhough I desperately want to. There are some thoughts that come and go through my head but I have not had the courage yet to put them together to make sense of it. It's in a way very nasty and so far away from the beautiful world that I have created for myself that I'm afraid if I open the doors it will come in and turn the day into an infinite darkness.

So I shall stop here and hope that what seems to be the ugly truth inside me is nothing but a negative way to express all that has and has not happened to me or for me in this short period of life that I have had.

I would like to end this hear and wish myself luck 'cause I need it. :D

adios