Why should I be the ONE worrying about .....

why should I always be the one worrying about everything that happens around me?
Why should I always be the one taking the blame for everything that goes wrong around me ?

Why should I be the one trying to make everything happen the way it's supposed to?
Why should I be the one making good things happen?

I know that there's always a giver and a reciever........

But why should I always be the one giving and not the one recieving?

and why should I always be the one wondering if I didn't give enough to recieve what I wanted?

should it REALLY be this hard???????

is what I want in the end worth all this trouble?

and will what I get in the end be what I wanted to get??????

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy can't I for once in my life be a baby and have someone just take care of me and not blame me for anything AT ALL!

seriously.......as I look at the past......ever since I was borne ... I was the one taking care of me in so many ways...... and if I ever made a mistake I would pay for it in so many ways that I eventually learned to do everything right ...... I think it was always my dream to be a baby ....


grrrrr