Emptiness.......

How do u spell this word?

hmmm I donnow..........

I would like to wish u a happy birthday but I don't think I should......

First of all, I would like to thank you for whatever it was that you did for me...... yes I do appreciate it............

but if I were to thank u for that......... it just wouldn't work because at the same time I should be angry at you for leaving me.........

it's not fair to say that because .......as they say, "how can I say that I've lost something...when it was never mine?"..........

I'm not in a good stage...........

lost and empty......

that's how I feel.........

should I say happy birthday to you?

why? for making me feel something that was not there........LOVE......... define it......

was he just making a fool out of me? to be honest with u I don't know...... maybe I'm blind and can't see it ........ my friend thinks he did......... and that hurts!

thanks for telling me you like me.....out of ......... desperation? .....or .........for the fun of it?

I'm sorry...........I know that u had a bad break up........and I'm sorry that I don't remember when it was.... I think it was less than a year ago....... but whatever...........

you are still not over that........ no .......... I'm not complaining!

does it sound like I'm complaining?

well I'm sorry but I'm angry... for having experienced how great it feels to "feel like" someone cares about u... and u have no idea how bad it feels when that someone leaves u...........and u have no idea how scary it is to know that u will not find anyone like that anytime soon... and u have no idea how hard it is to know that and not be able to do anything about it..........and u have no idea how frustrating it is to know that ur not going to be happy for a while......and u have no idea how sad it feels to try to lie to yourself and move on.... like nothing ever happened..........

but the thing is........... something DID happen..........

pajmordeh........ that's how I feel.......... my heart.............empty again.......... DEFINE emptiness...........

I don't want anyone to play with my heart again......... I may think that I'm a tough person ........ but in reality..............experience has proved something else......

it's dangerous to even think about having a friendship with someone like me...... not because I'm a bad person......... just because u should never try to fool around with someone who's lonely....... u will be trying to just have a good time........while she becomes a small part of her life.. u become her EVERYTHING.......and once u leave........... u'll be losing something......or it may even not feel that way because u've done it so many times that u don't even care........ but ....... she would lose............

so no......... I will not say happy birthday .........

"I should know that u're worth it before I make a decision of coming there or not......"
he didn't come......that means................. I wasn't.... worth.. his .......... time?

I don't want u to think that I care.. why should u think that I do .......... when u don't..........even a lil bit..........

thanks for listening to her song.........while talking to me.......

look at me....... I sound pathetic!

don't have anything else to say...............

BYE