Cry me a river!

hmmm...

:(

bad luck?

I guess so!!!

scattered mind........that's what I have! I can't focus on anything..........

right now I have a big headache! seems like it doesn't wanna go away!

ok... u wanna know what happened?

last night......as I went to sleep I knew that I had 101101029343983675 things to do...... but I decided to go to sleep early (12:00 ish) and wake up early (5:00) .......

I woke up at around 6:30 .......started typing what I thought was my "homework" ...what I thought was worth 7% of my term mark......and as I was sitting on the bus...on my way to class... I look at the outline...and realize that it really is just homework! worth nothingggggggg....

so I'm like ....... hmmm...calm down... I know that u spent 4-5 hours on it ....but it's all good...... LIVE AND LEARN........

then since I had so much on my mind already ..... + this ........ made me feel like I wanna just ... u know...go somewhere and never come back :D ........ aaaaaaa.. khob asaabam khoord shodeh bood....

I donnow why I hadn't thought about anything on the weekend...but when I woke up in the morning I realized that I have 1) French homework due today 2) French test on wednesday 3) need to read 30 pgs of psychology 4) have spanish test on friday 5) my spanish homework is due tonight ... all these + the fact that I had to type my "homework" gave me a panic attack!!!

anywayz........when I got off class at 1 ... as I was reading my old text msgs ......I realized that one of them ......the most important one that I'd written .... had not been sent!!!!

so I was like :-/ ..... very sad and mad......... it was a very important thing that I wanted to tell **** 2 nights ago...after we'd talked on the phone...and there's no way that I can send it to him now because 1) the moment has passed 2) I've already spent two days wondering why he hasn't replied.. 3 ) I've decided not to care anymore... but the poor guy hasn't even seen what I had to tell him... well ...I did send another txt msg that was kind of (L) ..but this was the main one!!!

here's what I'd written:

hmmm... u know what... I'm sorry... but I just feel like I shouldn't write it here... I don't want to think about it anymore!!!

ghesmat naboodeh :)

anywayz...right now I'm sooooooooooooooooooo tired..it's not even funny... I feel like I haven't slept in two days , this is exactly how I felt everyday last year at this time ... the only thing that's changed is the fact that I have time to go to sleep...last year .... haha...... let's just say that I had a sad life!

ok ... i shall go to sleep before I pass out.........ciaooooo