WEIRD?!

Yek planeh toop......

hehehe....... I had an evil idea... well not e***... just interesting....and kind of exciting!!!

I was like... ok .. I'm gonna do this... har che pish aayad khosh aayad........

As I was walking back home from the library, I was listening to P's mp3 player......and one of them was this >>>>>

Every now and then when I watch you

I wish that I could tell you that I want you

If I could have the chance to talk wit cha

If I could have the chance to walk wit cha

Then I would stop holding it in

And never have to go through this again

(real love)

and I was like........ OMG.... I'm totallllllllly sending this msg to #4 ........ so I came home .......and started writing this message....... he obvioiusly doesn't know my cell # so he wouldn't know who this is from........ so I spent about an hour writing this + asking him if he's in love with someone else etc. ( yes ...it's really hard to type with my stupid small cellphone that's why it took me an hour to write it!)

but at the end of it I felt sick....... I was like even if he comes and tells me that he wants to go out with me I'd say no!!! I'm forcing him to like me ........etc. and I was also thinking about Mr. V ..... let's say I'm goin out with #4 and somehow somewhere I see him...... I would immediately leave #4 to go and talk 2 Mr. V ...... but this way.....everyone will be hurt......

this was a really good conclusion... because I used to think that I wouldn't care about Mr. V at all if I ever start going out with #4 ........ but when I really pictured the whole thing in my head........ = NO WAY!

it's actually the opposite! if I ever go out with Mr. V ( in my dreams ... hahaha) and somehow somewhere see #4 I wouldn't care........

this is very interesting........ because a few hours ago I didn't think this way at all!

thank you god for making me realize this!

I donnow how I'd feel about #4 when I see him next time.....but I'm sure it wouldn't be the same anymore..............

p.s. I still don't know how I'd feel about Mr. V when I see him in person........ or how he'd feel about me...... because I've had some people tell me their stories about meeting "chatroom people" in real life....and eventhought they'd liked them on the phone... they turned to be different ........ and they laughed at themselves for ever liking one another.......