How Weird!

ok so there's this persian guy at work whom I thought I liked!

I'd tell u in a second why I used the past tense "thought" instead of "think"......

I was on the phone with my friend yesterday telling her that there's this guy at work who is kind of cute etc. and I like him etc. ..... so she said don worry...it's just a crush........bluh bluh bluh.....

I was like ..hmmm..maybe.... I donnow......

then.......I saw him at work...... and he asked me if I wanna go study with him in the library and teach him some calculus! (library is the safest place that I like going to with guys ...specially when I donnow them that well! so he had chosen a good place ! ) ..........bemaanad ke he has a gf and I was wondering why he's asked me to do such a thing.... he also asked me where I study on weekdays...and when I said @ UBC he said "well..maybe I can come to UBC" ........ so I was kind of confused and still am!

I donnow why I kind of felt like I don wanna go to the library with him??! is it because I think that I donnow calculus that well? or is it becaues I'm just scared of something else that I donnow about? I feel like I don like him anymore! lol .......

it's always been like this for me..........as soon as I decide to do something and feel like I have done it ....( ex. apply for a job and they call me to come for an interview) I feel too confident about myself and think that I can do better!

but what I seem to not understand is the question of "what is 'better' exactly?"

hmmm... it's just a psychological problem that I have! that's all!

how can I fix it? do I look like a psychologist to u?

: no .....

then why are u askin me?

: I donnow!