Thinking it is not doing it!!!

Even doing it is not doing it........

I'm so stupid.....yesterday I spent about 2 hours uploading pictures in my orkut profile and writing new things in the "about me part"........and after I was done........ I deleted my account......

So......do u believe that I'm crazy now?..... I was actually kind of shocked myself.....

And after deleting it ....for some reason it was not removed properly......so I can't log in my profile anymore but it's still there :(....... I was so angry...... but it's ok....... there's really not much I can do about it........

I'm still debating weather or not........ I should.......stop.......thinking......... about.......... ..............

U have no idea how peaceful I feel after I talk to ..... But on the other hand, when I don't talk to ..... I feel sooo bad...... I do crazy things like what I did yesterday.......I feel angry........

I dont know what will happen if I start forgetting about..... I can forget .... but i'll never forget the experience.... the feeling that was created in me after we met........ I can't erase that....... I just can't .........

I don't know what will happen......... I have so many things on my mind....... I have so many things that I should take care of......... I need a motivater........... god........ plz....... help :)

man kheyli aadameh bi janbeh e hastam!!!

Na mitoonam begam boro ......na mitoonam begam bemoon... aakhe man injaam roo zamin...toyi too ojeh aasemoon