No ... Don't give up.....

To nabaashi che omidi be deleh khasteyeh man
To ke khaamooshi bi to be shaamo sahar che konam baa ghameh to

تنها ماندم تنها با دل بر جا ماندم
راز خود به کس نگفتم
مهرت را به دل نهفتم
دل من ز غمت فغان برآرد
دل تو ز دلم خبر ندارد

Don't give up?
I've already given up!!

u know what I was thinking last night?
That I should call him this morning and ask if he wants to get one of my "family and friends" discount cards ..... just so I have a reason to call him......

But then this morning I was trying to be strong and say no.......

2 hours ago, my manager had called and asked me to go to work 4 hours earlier (at 12 instead of 4) ...... I decided to take a shower before I call her back to tell her if I can come or not

Then I was thinking...yes I was THINKING again....Thinking again about..........

why why why? why can't anyone distract me? why is there NO ONE who can distract me?

I thought maybe I should go to his house and knock on the door....... or just hide somewhere near his house and if he comes out alone go and say hi to him..... (how crippy...poor guy!!!)

so I decided not to go to work..... so I went online ...and... he was there!!!

I messaged him

says:
helo?
--- says:
salam
says:
shoma?
--- says:
nemishnasanm
says:
ki kio nemishnase?
--- says:
nemidooomam,
says:
aaaaaahaan
says:
man ke toro mishnasam
--- says:
afarin be to
says:
lol maskhareeee
--- says:
khodeti
says:
i know
says:
khoobiiiiii
--- says:
merc
--- says:
shoma khoobin
says:
man eyyy bad nistam
says:
key bidar shodi + alan chi kar mikoni
--- says:
10 deghas bidar shodam
says:
man tasmim gereftam dobareh bahat harf bezanam
--- says:
eftekhhar dadimm vaghean
says:
i know
says:
aakhe avvalesh mikhastam harf nazanam...bad didam oontori badtare... bishtar beh inke "chera bahat harf nemizanam" fekr mikonam...bara hamin goftam harf bezanam hadde aghal vojdaanam raahat tare
--- says:
cheghadr to mehrabooni
--- says:
lazem be in harfa nist
--- says:
mennat mizariii boro baba
says:
man mennat mizaram?
--- says:
mikham 100 sal harf nazani
says:
umm ok i guess that's all i needed to hear
--- says:
cheghar to poriiityii be khoda
says:
i'm not ..... ghashang manzooramo eshtebaah fahmidi...vali intori behtareh
--- says:
manzore shoma chi bood?
says:
manzooram hamooni bood ke az avval behet gofte boodam..... hamooni ke hichvaght "navafahmidi" .. but don worry ..it's all good

11:20 a.m.

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"mikhaam 100 saal ......" ....... this is what I'll keep saying to myself........I'm so happy..... he has finally said something that can stop all my thoughts..... can it? .......well, it has for now!!