HOW DISGUSTING!

I can not believe myself!!!!

yeki bayad be man begeh : "na baabaaaaa raa oftaadi"

it's funny and sad at the same time!

I donnow what the **** i'm doing..... i dont even want to be doing this.... i have no interest in what I'm about to do......eeeeeeee.... i just want to make it clear that this is not what i wan . . okkk .. i guess i made my point :D .....but yet I have set up APPOINTMENTS with 2 strangers for god only knows what reason! ....and I was chatting with both of them at the same time......yekishoon avvalesh yekam naaz mikard vali enghad mokhesho zadam taa balaro goft.......

so yes...... in two days im meeting #4 .....and in three days i'll be meeting #3....

vali what if I end up liking one of them? I'm just fast forwarding to the future.....

" i like u.....and by the way I had met 3 different guys in the same week when I met u....."

oh my god...that sounds so bad.... I don't feel like I'm innocent anymore....the one thing I was proud of is almost GONE....no...it was gone when I started using #'s.........

the thought of leily o majnoon is gone......I've killed majnoon with my own hands....

but if I live the quote "spend every day as if it's ur last day" ..... I'd rather be doing something than nothing at all....... u no what I mean? Of course u don't because even I donnow what I mean!

anywayz....this is not something that I am looking forward to but i'm still doin it.......

(oh and by the way #2 not showing up last night to chat with me had some impact on my decision....)

good luck to meeeeeeee