A.M.

5:02 a.m.

I keep waking up in the middle of the night...and just can't go back to sleep......
The thoughts in my head don't let me...........

Ok I admit........ I still can't believe my failure........ how could I do what I did to myself? to my future? I seriously don't know who I am anymore.... I seroiusly can't describe myself anymore...

? : oh ur so nice
me: yes but I can be a bitch sometimes

?: oh ur so dumb
me: yea but I used to be so smart

?: oh ur so insensetive
me: used to be so loving

etc.

so many things have changed........ I don't know if what I used to be is part of my past or can still become my present and future????????

Negaah kon ke gham darooneh dideh am chegooneh ghatre ghatre aab mishavad

Negaah kon tamaameh hastiam kharaab mishavad