Still Haven't Found........

The ONE

part of me is missing and I can not move on until I find that missing part......

I basically can NOT....... and i guess I proved that when I chose not to study and get bad marx!

Can not move on..can not go on...til that other half is found.......

like seriously.....this is no joke.... i used to be able to push myself forward....For example, I locked myself inside my house for 3 freakin monthes so I can study and get good marks.....that was last term.....and the turn outs...lets just say that they weren't so good.....when u don't have a healthy life u can not expect to have a healthy future.....at some point......your heart or your mind ( i donnow which) do force u to sacrifice something big in order to have some fun and enjoy ur life! and even though u know for sure that u just have to work hard, for example in my case study study study so I can transfer, a stronger force distracts u .......don't ask me where this force comes from because I have nooooo clue........( i wish i did ... so I could destroy it :D )

but yea....u end up like me.........still GIJO MABHOOT BEYNE BOODANO NABOODAN

donnow when and where or how to find it...... it's the biggest mystery of my life.....and i just know that nothing will improve until I find it.......

go ahead and call me needy/desparate/weak/dependent

i'm not ashamed of facing the truth!

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