My quote

 Once you have chosen a direction, go all the way in… no regrets or returns… 100% commitment 

So in love

 I’m just so in love and not nervous at all

I’m not nervous in a scary way

I feel like I have been waiting for this all my life

Well maybe that’s a lie because I think I didn’t want children in my early twenties… but it’s been a while since I have wanted this

I know it will be hard… but I just want to experience it… it’s just a surreal feeling 

I love my husband 

I can’t wait to meet her and love her… I already love her so much and my happiness is correlated with her kicks 🥰

Zahreh maar

 Bazi moghe haa vaghti sobh azkhaab paa misheh akhlaaghesh mesleh zahreh maareh .. va man har kari konam avaz nemisheh… vaghean bazi moghe ha in raftar khasteh konandast… hatta az gerye kardane khodamam khasteh misham

And I think to myself…

 I love this man… I need to have a bigger heart to love him as he is… it has been almost 2 years since I became aware of the “difference”… I have gone through the cycle of grief… from denial to anger… to bargaining and depression… now, for a while, I have been going through acceptance. I am not there yet… I am aware that I am not there… and although it’s not at times easy, I am taking the steps to get closer…

I can try to act kind… but what I really want is to be kind