Hmmm

 Excuse the minor anxiety as we step onto this week

I am trying not to think about it but not succeeding! The reason is because I probably want to think about it but there is no point in thinking about it now or even after until probably years from now because we don’t know what we don’t know until we know which may be more than a while

New journey

 I’m excited about the new journey 80% of the times

I try to focus on the positive 

I have a mix of 1000 different emotions. It’s a situation when you don’t want to get your hopes up but hard to not be excited about the possibility 

A part of me wants to do hours of research 

And a part of me wants to let go and just not overthink it

I’ll let it go for this time but it’s hard to not stress when the clock is ticking… that’s just the truth

Time to reflect

 Happy New Year!

This is the golden year… and no, I’m not talking about financial success… I just have a good feeling about this year 

Here are the answers to some questions:

1) what brought happiness in 2024?

-spending time w family and friends

-mentoring 

-working out and class pass

2) What are the people, experiences, and commitments that triggered negative feelings, energy and emotions for you in 2024?

- stressed people around me stressed me out

- my work

-controlling my husband 

3) What did you learn about yourself over the past year?

I learned that I can still be happy during stressful times and it’s my choice what I want to focus on.  One of the biggest lessons was after talking to a counselor once and complaining about my situation where she invited me firmly to not hurt someone when they are already down. That was the most challenging thing for me to balance how I feel and being true to myself while providing support to my husband without judgement- that was really difficult and it resulted in a lot of negative feelings about myself because of the fact that I threw up my feelings at times which were mean and hurtful - a side of myself that I don’t see often. 

4) What are you going to stop doing in the coming year?

- i want to spend less time on my phone ( max 5 hours a day)

5) What are you going to start doing next year?

- I want to have a routine in my life

- learn to have more compassion - I have a long way to go in accepting people that are “different” and being less judgmental 

6) What are you going to continue doing next year?

I’m going to continue working out, volunteering and spending time w people close to me

7) What can you today to take the first step in the direction toward making 2025 your best year yet?

- ensure that I am not on my phone more than 5 hours